Friday, 19 July 2013

CLASH OF THE TITANS: FLESH, MIND & SPIRIT part 1

            Where do I start from? Lord I want to talk to you, I really do. I have tried so hard but I just can’t get myself to do it. You know that point you get to where you feel so much guilt that even “I‘m sorry”, feels like a lie coming from your own mouth? It’s been awhile since the day I made the decision to accept Jesus into my life as my lord and personal saviour. But looking back, thus far, it only feels and looks like I am yet to make that decision. I try to put myself in Gods shoes and it eats me up each time I do because I see how much wrong I have done and how much I have failed him.
 When I think of The Judgement Day, I feel as though there would be a separate place and judgement pronounced on church kids. judgement_day
You Know, we grew up in church, know God’s word in and out to an extent, pray and sometimes hear from God and still harbour a lot of foolishness ; sin. I feel so bad to even pray because somehow I just feel deep down that “hey, you know, after this prayer, you are still going right back to what you are praying about”. So I stopped praying, yea I did. I couldn’t stand going back and forth with God in prayers, taking advantage of his mercifulness and I know a lot of us feel this way sometimes. I thought I could handle it by myself and then run back to God after I have handled it to an extent and meet God to complete the rest but damn was I wrong! The farther you go from God, the closer you get to the world, the devil and everything you think you are trying to leave. God has never once complained about being tired of being merciful. So, u better drop all that foolishness and return to God. You fall once, pick yourself up and turn to God. You fall again, go to God. You fall again and again, run to him. Just like Joseph, don’t let go until he answers you.
“May we continue in sin that grace may abound, God forbid!”-the fact that God is merciful and ever ready to forgive should not be a yardstick for us to continue in sin knowing when we feel like it, we could present ourselves to God in remorse. It should be from a sincere heart. The relationship we have with God can be likened to a long white smooth rope with you holding it at one end and God at the other. When you cut it in the middle, it creates a gap. (That gap being sin and or whatsoever can strain ones relationship with God). You Knot it right back together, and another cut and another cut and another. You knot and knot until the rope is no longer that white smooth rope it was at the beginning. It now looks so rough that one’s hand can’t slide through smoothly. But look closely, for each cut and knot, the rope became shorter. There by bringing you closer to the other end – God. Every challenge and trial in our life is nothing but a stepping stone to bring us closer to God as long as you recognize that. So when a challenge faces you, you don’t give up on yourself or God, you don’t throw d rope and get new one to start afresh? No! You pick yourself up. You get that loose end of that rope and knot it. Didn’t God say his thoughts towards us are thoughts of good and not of evil to bring us to an expected end? Hold him to his word. You go on your knees and remind him of his word in that your situation. Give him a dare. “Oh if ye b God indeed, prove your word in my life”. Then you let go and let God be God. Let God have his way. “If God wants to take all the glory, let him do all the work; take rest in God” - Joseph Prince. We can never phantom how the mind of God works so somewhere along the line in that storm, bad things may happen. People you love may die, secrets may come out, diseases might set in, people may hate you. But child of God, you don’t give up. If u know deep down u have wrong God, amend your ways because ‘‘the prayer of a sinner is an abomination to the Lord’’. So you have to first, no matter how horrible your life has been, go to God in prayersKneeling-prayer1 and ask for forgiveness sincerely from the depth of your heart. When you made that decision to serve him, God didn’t promise a bed full of roses all through the journey. But one thing he did promise is that he would be there for you through whatever storm. All you have to do is reach out to him and he will get you.
to be continued...

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